Tomorrow is 2 months since you’ve been gone.
Feels like years, not just 60 days.
I’d do any and everything to have you back, making me smile and helping me forget my problems. Be there to celebrate 1 year with me, like we celebrated yours.
I don’t think you understood the impact you had on my life since December of 2010, when I saw you on stage with your green hair ripping the shit out of your guitar. I was introduced to some incredible people through you.
I love you, I miss you, and I can’t wait to see you. You were an incredible person who impacted many. <3
RIP 102192 - 012613.
Some people walk into and out of your life without you even noticing. Then there’s the people who walk in your life, and you can’t think of what it’d be like without them there. Poof, one day they’re gone. Out from under your nose, unexpectedly. It’s not a fight, disagreement, or distance. It’s the matter of life/death. I lost the most important person in my life on January 26th, 2013. My best friend passed away of an unexpected asthma attack overnight. This was the guy that’s been in my life for 3 years, met him through Patent Pending, the Sherman Theater, and Roger Santiago. His mom was like an adopted mother to me. Always made sure I was fed when I was over, or made sure I was feeling okay in the long run. She was such a loving woman who didn’t deserve to lose her son at age 20. We weren’t agreeing with things at the time of his passing. We were strangers, pushed away by one decision of one man over another. He chose it that way, called me inappropriate names and was quite.. crude. But, he called and apologized a week before his death. I don’t like using the word death, it sounds so depressing and painful. Ever listen to the song “Sleep Patterns” by Merchant Ships? Such an strong song, with a stronger story. I just want my best friend back, the man I did love. Who loved me unlike anyone I’ve ever met. We were so close yet so far apart. I’d do anything to have you here. The one person who understands everything and anything I ever worried about.
At my job, I’ve been surrounded by relatively the same people every weekend for the last two years. Seems like just yesterday I met these people, but we all share a special story. Some of us with emotional ties, some of us with history. But, we all have a mutual understanding of each other. This is my dysfunctional family. These are the people who have had the biggest influence on my life. Taught me some of the very good things I use every day, and how I’m important. I can thank a few of them, especially for picking me up when I am down, being my best friend, and smacking me around to teach me some things. This is where my love of paintball came from. I’ve met such incredible coworkers, who I get eager to share the field with every once in awhile. Those are the true people in my life. Without them, and the job, I wouldn’t know where I’d be today. Thank you. I have some really awesome friends that I would like to say, I LOVE YOU GUYS.
N.A ; L.K ; A.P ; S.M ; K.M ; K.P ; D.P ; B.H ; & so much more. <3